I would love to just sit here and write about how bad life sucks sometimes, but that wouldn't do me any good. All I would be telling the Lord is that I am incredibly ungrateful for all of the wonderful blessings in my life. I am desperately trying to count them all right now to keep me from becoming anymore bitter and angry than I already am.
So far... every season of this year has brought about something tragic for my little family. Spring was when my dad died, and then summer, my grandpa. Now for fall, Jim has lossed his job. I would love to go into details, but it will only send me into a more angry state of mind... counting my blessings, counting my blessings, counting... counting.... Suffice it to say that after 8 years of hard work and dedication with the Olive Garden, all it took was a brand new director who came here from somewhere in the midwest and brought over several of his old employees, one of which was a manager who he put in Jim's resturaunt and was only concerened with becoming the new G.M. This manager saw an opportunity to get Jim in trouble with something he didn't even know he was doing wrong and that "was all she wrote." The funny part is that Jim has hated working there for several years and asked the Lord on several occasions to help him find a way out.... I guess his prayer was answered. Does anyone else find that as comical as I do? Jim is very much at peace and comforting me in all of this. That's so sad!!!
So.. about those blessings. How grateful I am for the Gospel. To have a testimony and know that Jesus Christ lives, he is mindful of my needs and we are somehow suppose to learn something from all of this. I have a wonderful husband who is willing to work hard and honors his priesthood. Our kids are such amazing spirits and bring great joy into our home. We are blessed to be part of a great ward and have made many friends.
I went to the temple today hoping for some kind of clarity, and you know what I came away with...? The only thing that was made clear to me was that I need to go to the temple more often. I laughed a bit about that.
So, you can see why I would be a bit nervous about what winter is going to bring our way.
